TWISTED HEART

2010-09-21T03:21:00.000-07:00

1 mnth has past as fast as evth had happen.

da step whc i tOOk,the hard decesions whc i made.

bOy thOse shit eu put mi thrOugh ..

i still endured whc i almOst brOke da knOt ..

eu shld knw by nOw wads impt btwn us & wads right 4 eu ..

thOse wOrds eu said hOpefully its true,

@ times whc it makes mi wOnder thOugh.

as i said i'll be thr 4 eu nO matter wad & transfOrm eu intO sum 1.

as lOng as eu wnt take thOse tOugh steps On mi.

baby ily & eu knw it .. eu knw ma lOve 4 eu is as pure as any Other

gal wld give eu. mmd firOz!

Zai JuniOr

cutex kn bdk nie!geraamz! well

hyz gOnna be ma future hubby!

permissiOn frm hys dad! wEeee ..

OUTDATED PIX! @ CUZZIES JEROMES 21ST BDAE!

I LOVE DAM ALL!

2010-08-20T10:51:00.000-07:00

lemme tOk bOut tish special lOvey dOvey dude in ma lyf nOw .

im lyk really treasureing hym 2 da max ..

im sOooOOooooo deeply in lOve w hym sia!

i knw in the past i did mentiOn nO mOre mly dudes 4 mi aft ma previOus ..

bud i dunnOo .. its been lOng ive been single ive ignOred mly dudes ..

as in relatiOnship w dam .. din wanna haf any cntcs either ..

i wsnt ready Or want any realtiOnships!

bud aft all tish while Out Of nO whr pOom! tish rezzy dude appears.

whr else it wsnt easy 4 mi 2 accept hym .. ma heart was lyk stOne as eva ..

intially i did accept hym w wOrds Oni! bud nOt w ma whOle heart.

as he prOmised mi .. bud i knew & aint stOopid lOnger ..

i din even haf ani lil feelings 4 hym!

i din bOther .. i even let Out hw i felt ..

i was being a bitch sia! in the end .. he prOved mi right ..

he made mi sO crazy Over hym ..

ma feelings juz pOured Out! lyk running water! i cnt help it ..

& still am in shOck hOw did eu lOve hym? wen eu mOved awae frm Other mly dudes .. n evth!eu knw .. im sure hys wae diff! cOz Of 1 reasOn .. im nt revealing it .. a islam dude wh'll gO till tt extend 2 dO anth 4 hys nOn islam gf!

I FARKING ♥ HYM DEEPDEEP

HYS MA LUCKY CHARM

MA DAD

MA MUM

MA STRENGHT

MA JOY

MA HEART BEAT

MA GUARDIAN

MA LIGHT

MA DIRECTIONS

MA SECURITY

MA LOVER

MA BFF

MA PILLION

evth tt i cld think Of?

NOT 4GETTING MA HUBBY??

he cares 4 mi lyk hOw ma parents wld ..

he feeds mi lyk a dad whc will pamper hys oni daughter ..

r eu da gift Of ma lyf bOi ..?

da dae wen i was sick ..

he came dOwn adw juz 2 brg mi 2 clinic ..

withOut a slpi 4 2 daez!

hw sweet is tt ..

NATIONAL DAE W GFS !

PS; NO 1 CAN REPLACE EU!

i feel sOO stOOpid On hw i reacted ystd ..

i feel tt im selfish @ tyms ..

i really dunnO wads wrng w mi .. i feel sO insecure 4 sum reasOns ..

bud i felt sO hurt ystd & i juz cnt seem 2 explain 2 hym?

y sia nana ..

bud wadeva itis .. i still lOve hym ..

bud y dO i keep wanting it 2 turn Out da negative wae ..

im happy tt he understands mi ..

he knw mi well mOre den i dO maself.

LOVELOVE!

2010-07-27T11:58:00.000-07:00

werkwerkwerk ..

nothing bud werk seems 2 be in ya lyf tO-dO bOOk nOw ..

well .. lyf still has 2 gO On isnt it? nO $$$$ nO tOk nOw.

i must say im Overcuming thngs nOw ..

im much strOnger? cOmpared 2 werk issues are pweety much stresser nOw.

i kindda strt draging maself 2 werk ... mmm ..

ive gOt thngs 2 decide abt 2 .. 4 nOw i will juz stp here.

OVERALL I MISH MA SPECIAL 1

The whOle mOnth Of wOrldcup we had 2 wear jerseys!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-06-14T04:47:00.000-07:00

hey,hws da changes? yea .. lyk finally

i tame da singa ... nO mOre liOn king liOa ..

im hapi w ma easy hair nw .. im happy tt i settled 1

thing whc ive been lOng wanti 2 ...

nw i luk much presentable .. haha ..

OOh yea IM NO LONGER USEING HP.

anth juz cntc mi thrOugh fb Or msn.

2dae its ma Off .. all i did was slpt almOst half a dae ..

it was lyk heaven i tell eu .. super shiOk .. whr i dun haf 2 wakEe

early in mOrn .. drag maslf 2 da tOilet & Otw seeing ma family members

snOreing sO shiOkly awae ... hahaha jealOus knw! plus 2dae is mOndae!

i was da Oni 1 still in bed lyk a lOg ... bud here iam feelign sO lazy .. i still wanna slp ..

gaaaahhh ..

werk haf been really stressi mi Out.@ sum pOint i feel tt it isnt 4 mi ..

nt ma kindda thingEe .. been hafi issues w peeps thr ..

whc sO far it neva happen in ma entire werki lyf .

i Owaez get alOng w ani 1 i werk w ..

bud nw .. dunnO lahz ..

bud as lOng as im nt da Oni 1 whu cnt get alOng w dat persOn its fine. ..

am juz really hOpeing things will juz gO w da flOw whr it suppOse 2 head 2 ..

Last Satdae Out w fam aft werk.

sentOsa.

nOtti chOcO ..

da herOs step tai2

da Outdated pix whr i was suppOse 2 uplOad

a dae @ twn w ma phillipinOs,lOve dam

ps;HAPPY WORLDCUP & SLEEPLESS NYT PPL!

2010-05-05T03:40:00.000-07:00

wOkay i juz had 2 uplOad tish pix ..

smth bt tish pix is nice .. da effect!

kindda lyk it .. besidez ma face.ignOre dat i knw i

luk lyka singaaa ter lepas ..! lOlx!!!!!!

well i tink tish is ma sec week Of werk i guess ..

mmm .. isit? evth has been fine besidez 4 da ferst few daez whr i was kindda

pissed Of w sum dude whu tOks big ... hahakz .. sO far im getting wOkay w ppl thr ..

esp da recp peepz! juz lOve dam lOhz & da aunties ...

kidda gt anOther jOb Offer @ bOdy shOp .. i dunnO if i shld gO ..

n make tish jOb ma part tym .. we'll c hw bt it ..

mmmm .. hOpefully gOd leads mi da wae ...

OUTDATED PIX!
A dae b4 ma new jOb!

SWENSENSE TREAT!

meeting aft a lOng .. i lOve tish pix!

a fwen indeed a pillOr Of suppOrt & strength

dun wish 2 lOOse eu Dude.

2 kukus made ma dae. lOve bth!

da slipper whc wanna get!

da 1 in red n white plz!

ignOre da Other 1 ..

PS; i treasure eu in ma lyf,i dun wish it 2 juz end if i were 2 take da wrng step 2wards eu.
ps; wad if tt sum 1 still appears in ya mind whr else his sum 1 husband n dad? wdf!?

2010-04-21T10:16:00.000-07:00

IMMA SUPPERR DUPPERR HAPPY GAL!

ive gt a new jOb & will be strti tish fri ..

hvnt knw whc Outlet yet .. till tmw briefing..

wOohOo ... i cn save ma $$$ n ma effOrt Of travelling

in the lOng mrt rides nw ..nO mOre lOng jOurneys 4 mi ..

plus its wOrth werki 4 ..

i cnt wait 4 fri .. bud scared OsO lahz haha ..

2 many high class dudes sia .. hahakz ..

we'll apperantly wen i went 4 da interview da ppl thr were friendly

thr was tish dude whu came up 2 mi n intrOduced hymself ..

guess wad .. da mOment he mentiOn his name i chOked OntO da sprite i was drinking!

a name whc i din eva wanna hear again ..

FARHAN!

grrrr ...

paisehxx sia ..

nt bad lahz ..

we'll i kindda realise da ppl werki thr r pweety yOung & they juz luk mature w da unifOrm.

1 wOrd SMART!

hOpe thngs will gO well 4 mi tish fri n make gd fwens.

all tankEe 2 gayu niwaez.

OUTDATED PIXES @ KK visiting

we bth were sO sOtOng ..

2 nt even nOe hw 2 head 2 kk frm bugis ..

wen thr was even a shuttle bus ..

we almOst hOped OntO da wrng 1 ..

whc dunnO whr it'll lead us 2 ..

hahakz ..i'll juz stp here den.

PS;its tym ma hair terribly needs a makeOver sOOn $$$$

2010-04-20T01:47:00.000-07:00

SUPERRRR OUTDAED POST.

12/4/1989

HAPPY BELATED 21ST BURFDAE MINTY!

huhu .. i hOpe eu did recieve ma text ..

plus Org tu dh tua sehx .. hahakz ..

klahz .. hOpe we'll meet up sOOn as planned aitex ..

MISH EU SIA BUDDY.

25/3/10

firstly, am juz uplOading super Outdated pixes ..

as i din reali haf da tym Or mOOd 2 update Or bOther bt ma blOg ..

i'll juz elebOrate bit n den da pix dO da tOki?

last mnth da 3 Of us had a interview 2 gO as i applied thrOugh Online

4 a jOb @ sentOsa .. i 4gt wads da pOsitiOn called .. all Of us rushed dwn aft hj werk

bud due 2 rain n lOst we were late 4 da breifing.wen we arrieved adw thr ..

dey asked us 2 cum dwn next week again if we r still intrested. upOn heari tt we were lyk haish!

bud den we tried aski qns abt the jobscOpe n pay .. & den realise it wsnt wOrth .. plus it wasnt @ the ir. bOrrriiiiii ... n sO we juz headed Of 2 universal studiO ... slack n buzzed dwn 2 vivO ..

yea .. appearently .. ttz bt it lahz ...

bOohOoo

WEI! fardiana! am nt ready yet!

(she luv tish pix sia!)

ahem .. hw cn bcum mOdel nt? fat mOdel uh kay?

last resOrt vivO n hOmee.

PS;applied a new jOb . =)

2010-03-28T12:32:00.000-07:00

M I S S E S TRUCKLOADS!

i regret 4 nt treasureing eu wen .....

2010-03-13T08:16:00.000-08:00

I didn't mean to let you down

You have to believe it

I don't know what went

Through my mind

But now I can see

That I waited too long

To tell you how much it matters(Just to be right here with you)

But I couldn't think of anything better

I should have told you so

Baby open your heart

Won't you give me a second chance

And I'll be here forever Open your heart

Let me show you how much I care

And I will make you understand

If you open your heart

To love me once again

I'll try to make it up to you

I want you to know (you have to know)

Baby I swear that I'll be true

And never let go

If I waited too long

To tell you how much it matters

Just to be right here with you

But I couldn't think of anything better

I should have told you so

Baby open your heart

Won't you give me a second chance

And I'll be here forever Open your heart

Let me show you how much I care

And I will make you understand

If you open your heart

To love me once again

We could relive this pain and sorrow

But we better do it in time

Start over here and save tomorrow

I wanna make you mine

Baby open your heart

Won't you give me a second chance

And I'll be here forever Open your heart

Let me show you how much I care

And I will make you understand

If you open your heart

To love me once again

Baby open your heart

Won't you give me a second chance

And I'll be here forever Open your heart

Let me show you how much I care

And I will make you understand

If you open your heart

To love me once again

Finally i sum hw

suddenly feel lyk updateing ..

well haf been spending mOst Of da tyms w tish grp Of gfs ..

weird? since wen did i mix w lOtsa chn?

hahakz .. i dunnOo .. i juz click w dam! i lOve dam!

i mish dam! dey r ma happiness nw .. wei! WAIT!

ITS NT TT IVE 4GTEN MA OTHER GFS!

well ive been bz w werk n stuff they r da 1s whum i c mOst Of da tym

sO yea ..

went Out in search Of clOthes 4 ma nephews bdae

text hui jia up & end up all tagged alOng plus spent $$$$

huhuhu .. had lOtsa funfunfun!

bOh lui liOa lehz!!!!!

❤❤❤

❤

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PS; IF I TOLDCHU I MISSED EU .. WLDEUSAYITBCK2MI?

2010-02-24T11:35:00.000-08:00

A N A F F Y!

tmw its gOnna be da last ..

& im aint gOnna cya tmw as ive gt htings On!

=( =( =(

where else eu'll be heading Of 2 camp ..

am sure gOnna mish eu! lyk farking lOts!

even thOugh ive been giveing eu sad faces all tish while ..

& recalling bck On hw eu reacted wen i said tknk fwen lagi!

& i gave eu bck ya name tag? dam i guess i'll nO lOnger haf

da name anaffy On mi animOre?!

a train ride w eu has been d daily rOutine 4 us ..

where else i Owaez made eu wait up 4 mi ..

& ending up in the wrng cabin ..

nw nO 1 ish gOnna sit clOsely beside 2 eunsure nO 1 will

land their head On mi ..

& hafing stoOpid eye cntc w eu & disturbing peeps in train.

i really hOpe eu wnt chg 2 da wOrst as i haf trust in eu ..

hOpe eu'll dO wads right 4 eu .. plus nt chOOseing da wrng path.

am deff gOnna tink Of eu weneva i pass tt paticular stp ..

am deff gOnna mish da cOnvOs we had ..

am gOnna mish On hw eu use 2 laugh ..

am gOnna mish ya kecOh lOud vOice ...

am gOnna mish da sad face eu dO bck 2 mi ..

am gOnna mish ya smile ...

am gOnna mish aski eu syg ku & eu aski mi bck ..

am gOnna mish YOU!

PS;doesnt he luks lyk faiz? he reminds mi Of hym imishhym 2!

2010-02-23T10:50:00.000-08:00

JB ISH SOOO CUTEX!

plus his vOice niceee.

LOVED!

MI + YOU

yOur ma 1 lOve ..

Ma 1 HeaRt ...

Ma 1 lyf 4 sure ..

imma tell yOu 1 tym ..

i mma be ya 1 gal ..

& ya b ma number 1 bOy ..

nw daez evari sOng i listen 2,i listen 2 it deeply w each & evari wOrd w feelings running thrOugh mi

SOON =)

2010-02-18T08:20:00.000-08:00

A nyt Of tearing unstOplessly ..

Ma mind hsnt been resting ..

i tOt evth was Over ..

i certainly tOt i was Over it & am strOng ..

ma past has been reali haunting mi Out ..

whr it was hard 4 mi ... bud @ dat pOint Of tym i reali din tink ..

nw? y muz things haf 2 turn Out tish wae?

right frm da begining .. i cldnt take any wOrd tt cums Out frm ya mOuth ..

as it was reali hurting!

we lOst cntc Once evth ended .. bud sum hw we gt bck cOnnected 2gather ..

bud w eu hafi sum 1 impt by ya side .. i din feel anth @ tt pOint Of tym ..

where else .. i juz duunOo .. da mOment i c thOse pix it hurts deeply ..

da mOment eu strt thOse harsh cOnvOs w mi .. ma tear cn juz rOll dwn!

even thOugh i try 2 mOve awae eu still keep cuming bck .. i try 2 ignOre eu bud i cnt seem 2 ..

even nw eu still kOl mi thOse sweet names .. bud i juz dun feel rite Or gO w da flOw .. cOz im aint sure if its deep frm eu .. rmbr euve gt sum 1 ... im juz ya past ..

lyk ive said karma ..

im getting bck wadeva ive dOne 2 eu in da past ..

i din realise hw much Of lOve eu had ..

till ystd was da dae whc i reali let it all Out 2 eu bOi ..

even nOei it was wrng! i did take ma limits .. bud eu din ..

all tish while i kept explaining things taya .. bud eu Owaez mistOOk mi ..

where we Owaez end up quarelling & hOpeing tt we'll neva hear frm eachOther again ..

am afraid .. i dun wish 2 destrOy anth either ..

we spOke,i want,whch im nt sure either.

y am i aint Over eu ? may i tOOk da wrng turn 2 early ..

whr else im missing eu .. w eu up in ma mind ..

the preciOus gift whc eu made 4 mi shall juz be given 2 mi ..

whr else i nOe things will neva b da same again.

eu said eu still lOve mi .. bud eu cnt haf bth in lyf .. hw cn eu lOve bth den ..

we'll am nt gOnna try ta steal eu awae .. i dun wish 2 .. putting maself in her shOes ..

i'll nOe hw it feels .. eu belOng 2 her nw ..

ive gt nOe right @ all ..

well its faithed.

hOpe eu realise things & nt think da Other wae rOund .

i reali had 2 put a stOp 2 a any new relatiOnship aft recent x

bud its has gOne Over limit right wae bck 2 ma past lOve ..

whr else eur up in ma mind ...

tertap syg nya msh ade.

2010-02-17T10:16:00.000-08:00

Out w GF♥

i seriOusly tOt i had werk 2dae ..

bud i was juz super lazy 2 wakEe ..

& sO i juz laid in bed .. till it was abt nOOn ..

On sec thOught felt lyk headi Off 2 werk .. pm shift instead ..

i text Our mummy .. bud she din reply & sO i juz din reali bOther ..

till receive a kOl frm hui jia lOve aski if i was @ werk ?

hahakz .. i wsnt! as she wanted mi 2 infOrm tt she'll be late ..

instead i tOld her 2 check 4 mi if dey needed staff & lemme nOe ..

while waitng 4 her 2 get bck 2 mi ..

i sum hw gt sOooo da malas .. plus bOred .. i juz text her saying ..nvm lahz 4gt it ..

dun need help mi ask .. she replied: ya name nt in lehz! hahakz ..

its ma Off sae sia! i was lyk WOW .. haha ..

i felt lyk heading Out .. bud LAZY 2!

2 mi evth seems far nw ..

it juz weakens mi weneva i crack ma head On whr i wanna head 2 ..

sO decided da nearest .. text up galfee ..

tOt Of slacki sum whr near her place ..

instead she wanted 2 head dwn 2 bukitpnjg 2 search 4 a stOrybOOk..

ahahkz .. ma gOddaughter step bOOkwOrm uh ..

make her mummy sO engrOss w da mOvee ps; ily

till we had 2 travel Other place 2 get it ..

haha .. as lOng as gf is hapi! iam 2!

siap! dia klua .. jage dia .. hahakz ..

seriOusly .. i cnt freaki wait 2 c gf's daughter!

@ the end Of da dae we had sO much 2 tOk abt ..

bud 1 thing we realised was .. where eva bth Of us gO ..

we Owaez get 2 be w eachOther nO matter wad!

nO matter wad i'll stand by her as lOng as i cn ..

im sure she'll dO da same 4 mi 2 ...

MAHAL KITA♥

as i mentiOn in ma previOus pOst tt i'll gt pixes frm mx ..

well tish isnt da 1 ..

i'll blOg bt it sum tym sOOn i guess ...

well practically ..

all tish pix r juz 2 refresh 4 da whOle tym whc ive nt been blOgging ..

ive been bz werki .. n hafing lOtsa things happening in ma lyf ..

bud yet tish peeps were thr 2 keep mi gOi @ werk ...

hahakz .. bud tinking bck .. im juz afraid all Of tish will sOOn be juz memOries ..

bud still ive tOldchu peeps we'll still keep in tOuch nO matter wad.

plus eu guys r great nice ppl ..

PS;i juz cnt seem 2 let it gO frm ma mind ,y dOes it even cum bck!

2010-02-16T01:13:00.000-08:00

HEY , its been lOng since i updated! hahakz ..

been sO lazy plus extra bz & lOsta things ..

huhuhu ..

will be updateing sOOn lata aitex Once i gt thOse pixes frm

mx ...

4 nw i wanna gO head dwn jOg!

2009-12-23T09:48:00.000-08:00

HEYXX DALZEEE'S MY HPS DWN TEMP.

ANTH JUZ LEAVE MI A MSG AITEX ..

xmass ish here!

last min shOpping juz 4 ma neice ..

tish yr .. i dun even feel its xmass ..

plus i din even nOe tt tmw ish da eve Of xmass till ma sis asked mi Out ..

gaaaaaaahhhh ...

been bz w werk .. & lOtsa things in mind ..

hOpefully i'll spent ma xmass eve wisely even thOugh im werking.

lucky itz am shift. sO yea mOst prOb will be gOi Over 2 brO in laws side place ..

@ da same tymee i wanna meet cuzzies! its been sum tym since i went 2 church w dam!

grrrrr .. i dunnO .. c hw it gOes tmw .. i juz hOpe i'll haf fun ..

plus luking 4ward 2 NEW YR! wads in stOre 4 mi? lets club yaw!!!

ohhh SANTA! ALL I WANT 4 XMASS IS MA TRUE LOVE!!!

mentel!

candid hahakz! c ma muke!

S E I O W

AITEX!

juz a shOrt pOst ..

gOtta wakEe in da mOrn tmw!

PS;he still does appear in ma mind ..

y sehx!

2009-12-20T09:58:00.000-08:00

CONGRATZ 2 MR & MRS ZUL

the mOst happiest mOments in lyf

whr 4 mi it was lyk a dream ...

tears filled ma eyes da mOment i saw galfEe in white!

HELLO?! AM I DREAMING NA?

hahakz .. its certainly a mOment whr evari thing replayed in mind ..

frm da mOment On thOse daes since yOung ... sec lyf ...

evth ... & bOOm ma galfees getting married!

im happy 4 da bth Of ya ..

nO matter wad happens hOpe eu guys will give in ..

gO thrOugh thick Obstacles 2gather ...

im happy 4 da bth Of eu ...

*misses*

(nt forgetting fahmi)

ayam merah pOwer!

HAPPY MARRIAGE LYF!!!!

hahahahaahahahahahaha

2009-12-10T08:11:00.000-08:00

again i had da chance 2 SI ..

all tankEe 2 enna .. zyy & esp ziela ..

heard she tOOk da tix .. sO yea ..

i was sOo wanting 2 gO tish rOund & hOpeing tt sum hw we cld make it 2 da finals as well ..

i sOo wanna gOoo .. hOpefully we get da tix! grr ..

its sO nerve racking .. i luv dam bth ..hahakz ..

tabby wsnt tt bad either .. its was sad thOugh ..

da mOment she hugged her parents & juz brOke Out ..

Oohh mn i felt it ... its nt easy yaw ..

well i believe sumdae she'll be sum 1 ... she'll deff mi On shOw biz Or On radiO ..

sum hw .. sum whr eu'll c Or hear her 4 sure ...

aitex ..

will juz leave ya w pixes.

♥ SEZAIRI & SYLVIA

i luv dam

ive gain ma weight again!

TMW CSQ peeps OFF!

PS; OOhh santa .. all i was 4 xmass ish ma mr right..

2009-11-29T08:01:00.000-08:00

FREAK LER!!!

I SOO WANNA WTCH IT!

ive been waiting 4 mtnhs 4 it 2 be launched in sg ..

nw wen itz here! i gOtta wait 4 peeps 2 wtch it ..

hakz .. nw sO many peeps wanna ctch it w mi ..

since ive been makeing nOise 2 almOst evari 1 ...

haha .. pandan ma face ....

next week pweesh ppl! i cnt wait any lOnger ..

im sO dying .. hahakz .. k im crazy Over tish mOvEe since da 1st part i watched ..

THUMBS UP!

im bck yaw ..

as usual nw daez i dun even haf tym 4 maself?

well true? abit ler .. Other den dat im Owaez w ma nOrmal rOutine ..

& being @ da samee place ...

lyk peeps nw daez strt sayi weneva im here i c ya face ..

nie tempat kO pe?! hahakz .. sheesh! ma place? lyk ma father Own Oni uh? hahakz!

Overall wOkay lahz .. @ least haf sum nicee peeps by ma side @ werk .. cheering mi up ..

neva fail 2 kecOh2 .. bud @ sum pOint thrs sum shit gOi On .. almOst evari 1 eu cnt trust .. lyk ppl say dun trust ani 1 includeing ya Own blOOd .. wad else if itz nt ya blOOd?! gaaahh ..

werk place has alOt gOi On .. 2 many things haf been happening .. 2 many stOries,rumOrs,gOssips wadsO eva has been gOi On .. all i cn say is .. ive gt nO tym 4 all tish bud 2 juz listen .. listen .. listen .. unless its Over da limit ..

well im juz hOpeing i cld get trnsfered Over 2 anOther Outlet whc is Opening sOOn ..

i mish her ..

nw daez weneva i getta hang Out w her

it sticks lyk a glue mn!

big cnfrm swee sia!

grrrr .. hahakz ..

aitex ma pOst nw daez r getting mOre & mOre nOnsense ..

plus i dun tink its lively either ..

neither dO peeps even bOther reading it ..

hahakz ..

where else i feel lyk mrpk sia i ..

hahakz ..

shOrt pOst yaw ..

juz felt lyk updateing as its been DEAD!

layan Oni k?

hahakz!

2009-11-14T09:26:00.000-08:00

A dae Out w cuzzies 4 mOvee On wed ...

finally had tym made 4 dam ...

met @ tamp ... decided 2 wtch jennifers bOdy instead Of dunnO wad

mOvee dey wanted 2 wtch ...

gera said it was gOre .... bud in the end wOkay ler ...

megan fOx freaking hawt!!!! pweety sia ... hahakz!

aft mOvee headed Over 2 cuz place 2 met up ma aunt whc came dwn frm LOndOn ...

chilled awhile .. & left hOmee ...

i last saw her went i was Oni a kiddO!

geraldine - vanessa

♥

bugs bunny!

aunt Rossy♥

2009-11-02T06:50:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BURFDAE HISHAM

wanted 2 be the 1st 2 wish eu..

bud thr was nO wae tt i cld cntc eu..

hOpe eu haf a blast On tish burfdae Of urz.

keep smileing & be strOng.

stay healthy yaw.

PS;still am SICKSICKSICK-WEAK

2009-10-31T07:35:00.000-07:00

SICKSICKSICK!

SICK FACE!

dying sOOn...

HEYXx..

yea..ma blOg haf been dead & sO am i..

plenty Of things haf been takeing place..

gOOd & bad..mOstly r all On the negative side..

been werki lyk crazy...

till here i am sick! nt Oni mi bud evari 1 in werk seems 2 be sick.

its spreading....

wen 2 hOspi ystd as i cldnt take it any lOnger...sis draged mi Out Of bed..

ive been in bed 3 daez straight in a rOw... came hOmee half wae frm werk On thurs.

wanted 2 ring tt sum 1 whu stayed near by ma werk place 2 gimee a hand..bud i was badi & tink bck betta nOt.

sO yea bck 2 seeing da dOc..

dOc checked On mi..& i tOld hym i cnt reali breath weneva i cOugh..

in the end..da results were Out..

im shOcked..& i cnt accept da fact.bud lucky it Oni tempOr.

@ tish part Of tym..i tend 2 mish sum ppl..

i tend 2 tink bck On ma past...even thOugh evth is Over i tend 2 tink Of hym

4 da pass few daez On & Off...

bud dat Oni 1 persOn whu kept appearing in ma mind '' ''
i still dO rmbr & will neva 4gt wad he has dOne 4 mi & hw he has been thr 4 mi

he bOught mi panadOls wen he met mi...bOught mi ma fav cheeseburger plus apple pie.

even Offered 2 bring mi 2 da dOc.he wld check up On mi..sweetz!

ttz y ppl Owaez say..treasure dam wen their arnd ...Or wen dey leave den eu'll nOe hw much dey mean 2 eu.

MiShInG BaTtMaN

anOther persOn whc i missed.a persOn whc Oni lasted in ma breath

whc was lyk a dream cum true 4 mi..evth i wanted is wad he had..

bud i suppOse evth dOesnt last...eu'll haf 2 let it gO..wen a dream turns Out 2 be a nightmare 4 mi..din nOe getting 2 nOe hym was sucha nightmare w sO many un wanted prObs takeing place.

its sad tinking bck thOse sweet mOments whc Oni lasted few daez & nw...pOOOf...whr i haf 2 let evth gO.

crazy werkplace...
asking mi 2 cum dwn 2 werk @ tish hr...

while ppl is On mc.

cnt dey gt da pOint?

if i cn cum dwn nw 11pm?

den juz nw i mite as well gO 2 werk ritex?

ppl is sick lOhz...

grrr..hOpe things will be smOOth @ werk tmw.

PS;hOpeing sumdae .. my superman wld arrive..

2009-10-15T11:19:00.000-07:00

Saw tt tired face?! hahakz..withOut make up & stud..

luk freaki diff ritex? hahakz ttz hw ive been gOi 2 werk..

yeahuPp its ma BURFDAE & yet i still gO 2 werk!

plus it adds On 2 ma burOkness..

TIREDTIREDTIRED

STRESSSTRESSSTRESS

hahakz...

gOtta gt lOtsa stuff intO Our head lOhz..

bud Overall Oklahz fun.

lOtsa nicee ppl..all lyk gang up readi..

hahakz..

HELLO, WELCOME 2 . . .

its kOl a spOrk!

Yum Yum

nicee peeps!

PS;MISHING PWEETY BBYBOI

2009-10-15T10:17:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BURFDAE 2 MI!!!!!

TANKEE 2 ALL THOSE WHU WISHED MI YEA.

2009-10-10T04:13:00.000-07:00

sum tyms feelings r juz really hard..

sum tyms eu tend nt 2 even understand ya Own feelings..

eu juz tend 2 push dat vari chance wen its thr right infrOnt Of ya eyes..

evari thing eu wanted..bud @ sum part thrs smth lacking..

chemistry & da lOve 4 dat sum 1.

eu juz cnt brg da lOve Out 4 hym even nO matter hw hard eu try.

in the Other wOrds lOve cnt be fOrced Out.if its gOnna be tt wae den

it wldnt be true ritex?

wad else if eu juz gOtta knOw dat persOn 4 dat few weeks.

bud he readi had strted tOking bt wads next right @ dat vari mOment eu gOtta nOe hym.

as weeks gOes by eu tOlerated evth hOpeing tt it'll juz be a relatiOnship Of fwens?

yet evth happens sO fast..& n he wants da ans immidiately?

takeing weeks knOwn as knOwn eachOther 4 mnths Or yrz!

2 whOm eva it may cOncern..

i certainly was glad tt i fOund sum 1 whc ive Owaes wanted besides character n stuff..

religiOn wise n sO On was perfect.it set mi 2 da pOint.

bud da wae eu reacted & stuff right frm da beginning i din liked it.

bud i tried ignOring it.tinking tt mayb its juz da 1st impressiOn On eu.

bud as tym passed & wad eu had in mind i din feel it was right.

eu had a mindset Of being thr 4 mi..listening 2 all ma prObs & sO On.

yes indeed i appreciate it lOts.bud adding On 2 dat eu wanted mOre as a fwen within juz 3 weeks.3 weeks mite seem lOng 2 eu..within tish 3 weeks eu mite haf felt eu knOw mi mOre den enuf.bud 2 mi ITS JUST 3 WEEKS & i dun rush things useing da name Of friends.

i dun mix w sum 1 hw whr frens cn & mOre den frens cn dO & dOn's.

yea eu say im afraid 2 even give tish a try dude 2 ma past.yea i agree. bud eu were a plus pOint in religiOn..bud yet i cnt juz fOrce smth Out Of mi whr thrs nth @ all.its nt tt i still dO want ma past bck Or wad sO eva.past is past.bud yet ma past HE has Opened up ma mind..he wOke mi up frm ma stOOpid land.he made mi realise wad i really wanted..& its tym 4 mi 2 dO wadz right 4 mi & nt getting hurt Over & Over again.

we went Out bud it wsnt even a date.i tOOk it a meeting session.

da true fact all i wanted was a friendship.bud since eu rather lOOse friendship either juz cOz

eu cnt get Or imagine mi as a fwen 2 eu.

up 2 eu.i juz cnt fOrce sum 1 2 sty wen dey dun want ritex?

im cOOl w it.

i'll juz take eu as sum stOpper by whu helped mi Out

whr i fell.

*PeaCe*

A SMILEY DAE

a dae whr i neva failed 2 laugh ma ass Out.

a dae whr i fOund brightness.

a dae whr mr.MARK made mi feel diff.

whr ive been earning 2 feel it aft a lOng tym

aft sO much Of wad im gOi thrOugh.

yet evth was put aside 4 tt few hrs.

while i din wan da dae 2 end.

mark accOmpanied mi 2 cOllect ma cheque @ city hall

while i met fiza & kuai2.

aft tt fiza & kuai headed Off 2 twn while mi & mark walked arnd marina.

till we fOund a gd spOt 2 slack.

tOk2..laughed @ sO many stuff & sO On.

mark kept tOuching his eyes due 2 his bOdOh lens hahakz..

his eyes kindda gt infected by it.bud yet he step machO

din wanna take Off as he din haf his sOlutiOn & stuff.

kecian eu knw! i c hys eyes till i wanna tear liOa.

ttz hw red it was! eventuali he tOOk it Off wen we went 2 eat as

he became hungry mOnster.hahakz.aft eating slacked arnd again.

& Off we went Our seperate waes.

cn eu spOt his infected eye

saw ma teary eye? cOz Of hym.

hahakz

P A N T A T - B O Y

PS;TankEe 4 dae & making mi smile.

IHADFUN w eu bOi...

2009-10-07T22:45:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 31th BURFDAE SIS!

as evari yr passes by..

a yr Older eu get..

each & evari dae hOpeing tt eu'll stay happy & strOng.

eur ma blOOd & sOul whc i treasure lOts.

lOveing eu Owaez.

may eu haf a blast On tish burfdae.

HAPPY 21st BURFDAE HAIKEL

yey!

its ya burfdae..

lOlx!

see i din 4gt ya burfdae hOr...hOpe eu had a great tym..

dh tul2 jadi atOk liOa..gaaahhh..

Once again happy burfdae dude..

wOoo itz been lOng since i updated?

hahakz 2 malas..ive been wOrking 4 a event,

russien singapOre bussiness fOrum whc held @ shangri la.

there aft wen raye Outing finally..

cOz asari & da rest came 2 fetch mi till dey wait 4 mi @ the carpark.

sangOpp juz cOz dey want mi 2 gO.

sweet! plus TANKEE 2 ASARI 4 sending mi hOmee safely..

(i'll juz let da pix dO da tOki aitex)

RAYE OUTING.

fiza's hOmee was last.a few left earlier.

RSBF @ SHANGRI LA

ma fark face-ignore aitex

last dae we gOtta eat gd fOOd.

shidah & fiza missed it!

fOrtunately 1 Of da dae whr Our event held

was OsO On da same dae as fann wOngs wedding.

we gOtta chance 2 luk @ da decO n stuff

plus christOpher lee.hahakz.

saw lOtsa celebrity.

bud mark lee was da mOst friendly funny dude..!

PS;came acrOss..

2009-09-25T07:17:00.000-07:00

im in a pOsitiOn whr im helpless.

i juz wOnder y muz all tish things happen @ tish pOint Of tym.

y muz it even happen.y?!

ive been tinking lOts & lOts! haf nt been hafing a piss Of mind.

juz feel lyk running awae frm evth, cn i juz die?

all i cn dO is 2 juz break dwn. asking maself wadz happening.

ive neva felt da hardpship Or pain in lyf even thOugh

ive had sum part shattered wen i was yOung.

ive neve even felt it.

bud nw?iam..& its freaking hard 4 mi.

@ tyms i juz feel lyk crying Out 4 sum 1.

bud i nOe its impOssible 4 tt sum 1 tO appear rigth infrOnt Of mi.

bud 2 Oni listen & see wad im gOi thrOugh.

even thOugh if ttz da case.nw im strting 2 tink bt anOther mOst impt persOn in ma lyf 2.

i wOnder whr is he..

wads he dOi..

is he in gd health..

is here in sg..

is he dead...

IDUNNOOOOO!!!!

IMISHHYM SIA! I REALI DO..

i wOnder dOes he even tink bt mi..dOes he even rmbr mi..dOes he even rmbrs he has..

eu nOe thrs sO much things running thrOugh ma mind each dae! sO many diff stuff whc links 2 Oni 1!

im juz crying within.nOeing things will turn Out gd 4 mi.

ive nt been enjOying maself.

ive nt been cntci much ppl.

ive nt been meeting up gf's.

ive nt been gOi 2 ani parties.

ive nt been doing things lyk wad i used to.

ive nt been slping well.

ive nt been maself.

ive neva felt tish wae in ma entire lyf till nw.

all juz cOz Of 1 stranger mOther farker whu ruin intO ppls lyf!

2dae met vincent..

accOmpany mi tO capital building 2 cOllect ma unifrOm 4

ma werk. whc an event will be cuming up.

as im being invOlve On mOndae.

OMGD! 2dae was a dae whr eu c sO many ppl

plus unifOrm dudes! plus tOurist.

all cOz Of F1.da sOund Of it..

juz give mi thOse chills thrOugh ma blOOd!

cnt take it..i sO wanna wtch bud 2 bad nO pass

nO entry.plus i tOt we cld haf a sneek preview

bud evari whr was cOvered w green sheets!

Oni thOse On tOp @ sum building cld see!

i was jus beside it but 2 Oni hear thOse Rrrrrrr...

hahakz..

den headed Ove 2 sccci building 4 breiveing.

went Over 2 meOws place & bck hOmee w vincent.

tOOk shOwer & went lpk.

ouhk yeah i 4gt.

i bump intO sO many peepOs 2dae!

wEeeeeee..

1st bump intO sathia!

den zyyy!

den 1 Of ma skOOlmates.

wOooo...

am sO dead beat tired.

kaki mau patah ani min.

NYTZ!

candid + he dOesnt lyk takeing pix

PS;This gOes Out 2 ma galfees,im

really2 sOwiex tt ive nt been hanging Out w eu guys..

even tish raye im nt sure either.its hard.weneva ya'll say plzz..

n reali wants mi 2 gO i juz feel bad tt i dun turn up.

i hOpe ya'll will partially understand wad situatiOn im in by reading ma blOg.

nana syg kOrg sehxx! imish all Of eu!

2009-09-24T02:44:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 19TH BURFDAE GALFEE!!!!

happy burfdae 2 eu

happy burfdae 2 KIA

happy burfdae 2 eu!!!!

na..

i nOe things haf been rOugh 4 eu..

& 4 ur burfdae tish yr thr nth tt i cld dO

bud 2 Oni wish eu..as eu yaself nOe in wad im gOi thrOugh.

tankz 4 reali understanding mi & being thr 4 mi.

even thOugh we dun haf tym 4 eachOther.

sum hw we'll still find a awae.

tankEe 4 ya tOts Of wanting mi 2 jOin eu & zul.

as eu gett Older tish dae hOpe eu'll b strOnger

plus things gOez smOOth 4 eu baby.

HAPPY 22TH BURFDAE MR IRUL SANCHEZ

Garfeild,

huhuhu..

muke dia mcm garfeild kn?

plus his eyes..cutex2!

meOw! heex..

happy burfdae meOw.sOwiex nO surprises 4 eu

i hOpe ma wishes was sincere enuf 4 eu

hOpe yOu'll haf a great tym even walaupun awk keje.

hahakz..shall meet up sumdae Oteyz..

nana rindu gilera kamu tu.

hahakz..

2009-09-20T00:44:00.000-07:00

19/09/09

HAPPY 20th BURFDAE WAN!

Even thOugh its been daez..

euve seem a nice persOn frm ma pOint Of view.

& On hw eu carry Out yaself..euve never hide whu eu truely are.

euve Owaez been yaself.ive tOldchu b4..

i hOpe eu still cld recall wad eva ive said 2 eu...

i believe eu'll chg & lead a gd future.eu'll win ya princess bck.

ur reali a nice guy..am dissapOinted thOugh bt ya decisiOns.

bud hey i nOe eu'll lead in a gd path sumdae.

dO wadz right 4 eu DOH! hahakz..

gd luck DOH!

SLMT RAYA 2 ALL MA MUSLIM PEEPOS!

nana nk kueh tart lerr!

huhuhuhu

2009-09-15T01:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPY!
WEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

Guess wad peepOs..
im strti werk tish thurs liOa!
huhuhu..
i gOt bck ma Old jOb!
yup2..i'll be bck werki @ wild2 wet babeh..
im gOnna treat yini darlzEe!

well things haf been really shakey mi & fam.
4 sum paticular reasOns..sOme stranger!
tish yr is really nt Our yr..it sucks alOt!
sO many things haf been happening..thrs sO much im gOi thrOugh..
ive nt been njOying maself lyk evari Other teens dOes.
@ tish pOint ive gt lOtsa respOnsibilites 2 handle..lOtsa thing 2 sacrifice 4..
ma freedOm..ma happiness..ma njOyment...Outings..friends..evth!
its all dOwn 2 mi & maself.
im fighting thrOugh tish tOugh mOments.
im fighting ma wae Out Of being strOng.
i hOpe iam.i really hOpe things will fall in place 4 mi.
bud yet im nt Over & dOne w dat persOn whu caused all tish!
im really Out 4 revenge! im juz waiting 4 da rite tym!
i cnt juz sty quiet & dO nth! its ma lyf...& if sum 1 messes w mine Or ma fam?
im Out 4 it.

2dae did nth much..
wOke up & went out early mOrn..
accOmpanied sis 2 settle sum stuff..
while i hanged Out w baby mOnster.
bby mOnster has reali been ma pillOr 2 stand up..
shes da 1 whu keeps mi smileing even thOugh nO matter what happens.
i nOe sum dae..tt vari dae..i'll be ya mum & evth..
i try ma vari best 2 take gd care Of eu darlz..

Y E S T E R D A E

yini darlzEe accOmpanied mi 2 dwn twn
2 apply bck ma Old jOb.
TANKEE DARLZEE!
i Owe eu!
hehex!

11/9/09

LPK @ EUNOS

SOWIEX 2 GFS 4 nt tagging alOng 2 geylang bazzar!

ma sincere apOlOgy.

i mish eu gals lOts sehxx!

i hOpe i cld make it 2 jln raya w ya'll!

PS;MISHING GFS!

2009-09-10T10:10:00.000-07:00

RATE:8/10

FEEDBACK:kecOh + NicEee..

TankEe 2 wan.

2009-09-05T03:23:00.000-07:00

currently:Neck hurts sO badly since ystd.

as daez keeps gOi..

evari dae i juz hOpe & pray tt evth will really fall in place 4 mi.

ma lyf hasnt been much in a mess even thOugh i mite nt haf tt special sum 1 in ma lyf 2 lead

me da wae.bud ive had walls 2 lean & suppOrt ma bck.

hw lOng cn i gO On tish wae..as i nOe the tym has arise..

whr im nt even ready 4 anth...even thOugh im nt..

im gOi w da flOw..im dOi wad i haf 2 nw 4 maself..

bud evth dOesnt seem 2 gO da wae i want it 2..

lyf is really tOugh @ tyms..ttz wen eu realise things..

ppl in thish wOrld haf their Own demOn side..

eu nOe..they tend 2 get jealOus Or unhappy abt Others gd lyf..

im future thrs Owaez a REVENGE 4 evth.

ma future lays w gOd.

4 whum he decides.

A dae Outz w GF shidah 4 jOb interview @ gv.

suupOse 2 apply 4 ciscO screening Officer @ changi..

but i felt tt i wsnt readi 4 dat jOb even thOugh da pay is a bOOm!

i dun tink i'll sty lOng in it Or suits mi as peeps arnd mi 2 said SURE? EU WANT TT?

it left mi half hearted..but i wanted tt kindda heavy duty jOb thOugh..

smth whc cn really keep mi dead bit tired! bud tt ciscO was lyk vari last min..

we'll c hOw in future.

da interview was made in public.

whr thr were lOts Of applicants + interviewers.

sO yea we were interviewed beside,bck,front Of eachOther.

hahakz..i Overheard shidahs cOnvO..KECOH!

ma interviewer went Ok bud she did ask mi lOtsa qns due 2 wad i state in da applicatiOn fOrm

1 part was HER:(lOOks @ mi)

''ur graduated frm nitec in beauty therapy???"(blank face)

2nd was HER:(lOOks @ ma previOus jOb)

why din eu gO bck 2 ya previOus jOb??

ME:beauty thrs still a lOng wae 4 mi 2 gO..mite wanna cOnt in future..

4 nw its hard if im gOnna sty in tt line..im intO entertainment line 2..

previOus jObs? i did..bud well its full 4 nw..

hahakz..she ask mi 2 much stuff lOhz!

i was 2 nervOus!

hOpefully shes nt da head Or smth..

well tish jOb is gOnna be tOugh i nOe..

she kept enphasing On it.

IM GONNA TAKE DA CHALLENGE.

praying hard.

aft interview went met GF kia.

teman her during her break.

ctched up few new stOries

& left 2 cathay waited 4 GF zirah 2 meet us aft her werk.

went shOpping.

2 many temptatiOns were rushing thrOugh mi!

i saw tish chales&keith heels!

drOOlsssssss............

NO PATIENTS SIA WANNA WERK!

hahakz & bck hOmeee..

camwhOre

lau dh nk shiOk sindri cm ner ehk

thOse heels! I WANAAAAAA..

PS;(H) Deng2 Bacen

2009-09-01T12:23:00.000-07:00

I Mish Ma Hair lOhz!

i feel sO bad 2dae..

as i asked gf shidahdOpe accOmpany mi 2 apply jOb..

in the end i cldnt make it while i was dwn w fever.

i din even tell her i cldnt make it sehxx.

as i was dead slp till i received her msg!

huhuhu..sOwiex gf!

i cld even hardly Open up ma eyes.

i received 17 missed kOls 10 msges sehxx..

wOoo..few were frm peepz i nOe & few were frm witheld.

grrr..was 2 malas 2 reply ani Of dam.

wen Of 2 changi in da evening 2 fetch sis & bck hOmee.

ma daes haf been bOrriinngg nw ma fever its added On 2 it....

hw miserable cn ma lyf be?

PATIENTS!

MUHAMAD FARHAN BIN ROSLI

if eu happen 2 read tish.

kO tkmO nk ssh2 kn Org.

kO nk brg2 kO mintak ku sindri.

asl nk kene suruh2 Org..

lagi2 wad stuff dO i haf?

earpeice? ok i will.

baju?

kO nk ual2 psl brg..

kO g phkr dulu uh..brg2 yg ku agi kO thOse tyms aading On 2 $$$$..

ade ku mintak alik?

eu made evth in a mess & yet still nk tanye nie sumua..

enuf lahz ehk.

you want it cOme n ask mi YASELF.

well im mishing ppl @ tish part Of tym..

ive been missing lOtz..

tinking lOts..

mayb @ 1 pOint i tOOK da wrng path Of chOOseing da wrng 1..

i mish mr battman

they were there 4 mi wen i was dwn wen i wsnt maself..

a careing persOn w a gd heart.

he tOOk such gd care Of mi..

bud i din appreciate it.

whr else i mOved awae frm hym whr left evth differently.

he became a stranger 2 mi.

i dO reali mish hym a fren whc i treasure.

sum stuff were left untOld.

HOPE YOU'LL RECOVER SOON.

dun give up hOpe..

HOPE YA MUMS FINE 2.

Missing Mr Battman.

2009-08-26T07:57:00.000-07:00

lyk finally i tOOk Off ma extensiOns.

ripping Of each evari dae..

i kindda realised it sucked.

i lOOked lyk an idiOt w it.

i needed thOse cOlOurs desperately tt tym.

huhuhu..nOw im bck 2 w plain blck hair.

gfs said i lOOk gOthic Or thOse kuai2 gal.

LOLX!

bud well ma hair lOOks healthy thOugh

i sOO wanna dye sOOn bud afraid it'll b bck 2 square 1.

we'll c hw.

As daez gOes by..

each & evari dae tt passes by...

as time speeds up...

it still feels as if nth is happening..

evari thing seems slOw wen its fast..

includeing memOries seems sO slOw 2 juz fade awae..

bud Oni 2 cOmbine up w anger +sadness...

it feels evth has chg..

wen thrs little bits whc hsnt chg deep dwn.

hOpeing it'll be taken awae by sum 1.

A DAE OF MEETING

yey! lyk finally im gOnna strt werk..

mOve ma ass & bOObies arnd..

went 4 a meeting @ city hall earlier w sis n gfs.

will b strti a part tym werk next mnth..

as a Event Organiser..

recOmanded by ma sis..

i brOught alOng few Of ma gfs 2 werk..

next mthns events will be w russians.

as we were tOld tt dey OsO hOld events 4 ZOukOut.

i was like baik pe..hahahakz..

nt bad lahz..mite even haf da chance tish yr 2 in charge Of zOukOut.

im actuali luking 4ward 2 werk w dam & gfs.

lalalalala..

betta den dOi nth kn...

gt werk..gt $$$ cuming in..

ok wad..

bud yet i still need a full tym jOb.

PS;i admite,i dO mish sum 1

2009-08-24T13:08:00.000-07:00

+BRUTALLY ROMANTIC+

TYM CHECKED:4:18am

MOOD:*tinking*yawns*

early mOrning received text

frm gf geetha

it wOke mi up..

i din nOe wad 2 dO Or reply her..

BE STRONG DARLZ.

aitex im gOnna brag bt thOse bOring daez i haf..

nO jOb..

nO $$$..

nO nth..

hahakz..lyk nO lyf lOhz..

itz freaking irritateing!

I NEED A GOD DAMN JOB!

@ tymz <> juz appears intO ma mind..

lyk a wind..

weneva a music is played..

Ma Mind Tends 2 wOnder awae bck..

ThOse tyms..

It weakens mi...

Im lOst..

Bud yet it still

i dunnO..when Or hw..

it'll dissapear @ Once..

neither dO i want tish feeling

i certainly wldnt wanna luk bck...

bud im mixed w anOther feeling.

2009-08-23T11:55:00.000-07:00

Ma dearest geetha..

i din nOe hw seriOus it cld haf cum 2..

wen i heard frm yini.i simply tOt it was a nOrmal..

nth seriOus..till i was thr..i felt it...

cOz ive been thrOugh tish darlz..

i nOe hw much it hurts deep dwn..

hw much ya gOi thrOugh @ tish part Of tym..

wen i saw ya mum..it reminded mi Of sum 1..it was exact..

bud a diff sickness..evth dOes happens fast!

right nw all eu cld dO is juz 2 be by her side..& tell her nt 2 wOrry..

she's suffering thr..figthing 4 all her pain..let her nOe..its wOkay 2 let gO..instead Of eu seeing her suffer..paryers dO helps as well...bbygurl! eu gOtta b strOng 4 sure! thrz lOtz mOre 4 eu 2 Overcum in tish wOrld..MUM is da greatest treasure..treasure her while eu cn..be by her side..cOz sum dae eu'll juz gOnna mish n feel helpless..all she needs nw is prayer..

BE STRONG! we lOve eu!

well its been 2 lazy 4 mi 2 update ma blOg liOa..

sO far nth much happened..

nth new..

as usual im still here makeing ma ass big..

havnt gOtten a jOb yet..

mcm buah tk jatuh...

grr!

its reali freaking hard..

2009-08-11T08:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BDAE NICO!

hOpe eu had a blast ytsd..

may ya hOpes n wishes cumz thrOugh bby.

b strOng.

ystd was a dae Out w gfs..

as we had plan 4 nicOs surprise bash.

mOst Of us turend up accept 4 a few Of dam.

its lyk aft sO lOng we r hanging Out @ last..

met da rest @ vivO arnd 7+ as i was abit late.

waited 4 dat sum 1 2 send mi thr..bud in the end he fell aslp.

had 2 get ma Own ass thr.

da bdae gal arrived quite late thOugh bud the plan did wOrked Out.

it brOught her 2 tear..hahakz..

cutex2!

aft cake cutting few Of us left as it was reali getting late.

while i met ma bacen gf kia @ cityhall & gt hOmee 2gather.

SURPRISE!!!

PS;tmw interview @ changi,WISH MI LUCK peepOs..

i need a job dude!

ma ass r getting bigger!

boobies?

LOLX!

2009-08-09T08:48:00.000-07:00

4 da past 2daez in a rOw..ive nt been getting enuf slp..all due 2 ma sis

bbq..& her cOcked up pit..whch she bOOked On da wrng date..

when she Oni fOund Out 2 daez b4 ystd..sO da carelss..she went 2 bOOk 4 sept instead Of 8 aug..kecOh..wanted 2 cancel it bud wad 2 dO her bOdOh hubby wanted it sO badly..

as his family haf beva had tish kindda thing b4..all sO kiasu.

ma pOOr sis had 2 gO in search Of a indOOr pit juz 4 hym n his fam.

i helped sis Out 4 da bbq as well as she wanted mi 2.i nOt 4 her i wldnt even bOther.

i wnt nt haf gOne as well! syg kakak ku nye psl uh...

sis wanted mi 2 wakee early juz 2 gO 2 ecp 2 find a hut as it'll b fully packed.

i fOund it reali riduculOus y mi? y nt her hubby..Or his fam members..

was abit pissed Of lahz..bud yet i still went & fOund a place 4 her.

while dey Oni appeared @ 4+..hw lOng is tt..

went 2 fetch ma mr mattrape & Off 2 ecp.

if nt 4 hym i guess i wld haf been dead due Of bOredOm.

reached thr he gt hymself chged n strted his kite flying.

nt bad uh he fly..he taught mi hw 2 fly a kite =) sweet kn.

i kindda sucked @ it.

while mr mattrape was bz flying tt spider kite Of his

i went 2 shiOk2 sindri w da wind.

thrOugh da wind i came acrOss tish sand castle.

whr i bumped intO a cyber fewn Of mine.tish dude made

mi pissed Off 4 1 mOment.eu nOe i nOe lahz kn.

mmm..mr messy hair dimpled dude..hahakz..name sape ehk?

finally ma sec sis n brO in law arrived.ma lOves!

as i cnt get alOng w 1st sis hubby n fam.2 da tipical! nt ma kindda.

im sOwiex.i n brO lOve strted da fire.bud we were pissed Of in the end

due 2 sum ppl whch i dun wanna mentiOn abt.seriOusly spOiled.

tish was lyk da vari 1st tym in ma lyf i sOO wanna get ma ass hOme asap!

i was pissed Of +tired+smelly..tish is wad i get 4 being nice!

im sO hateing tt panda!sucha Arse!step clever..

i Oni tOOk few pix.as thr wrnt anth intresting Or fun.

i simply juz had a bOring day.a reali bOring dae w bOring ppl.

besidez ma Own fam.

2DAE

One PPL..One NATION..One SINGAPORE!

HAPPY BDAE 2 ALL SINGAPOREANS!

did nth much 2dae..as im lyk really shack!

juz hOOked up 2 tEebEe..

& had sum mOments Of ma Own..

eu nOe @ tym eu juz tend 2 dun even bOther bt tt..

& den suddenly it appears OntO ya mind..

& den eu juz strt 2 tink bt it..

Or juz tear wen eu yaself nOe tt itz Out Of ya mind.

bud yet thrz smth..smth whc ya heart cnt hide it Or act it Out.

eu juz feel lyk hafing sum1 by ya side? hugging OntO eu tightly?

giveing eu tt 100 percent attentiOn & cOmfOrt?

i realised..4 mi..MUSIC SPEAKS my heart out.

ttz wen i nOe ma true feelings.

PS;i need ma happy pills plish,i wOnder whr..

Congratz 2 mr Sanchez.

2009-08-03T06:59:00.000-07:00

juz fnshed wtching ROMEO MUST DIE.

din dO much 2dae..

as usual slpt late last nytz..

din dO much 2 ystd besidez hOOki up OntO tEebEe..

wtched Garfeild 2! it sO reminded mi Of hym!

i was freaking mad y Of all da daez dey had 2 shOw its mOvee.

well yea..he Once again entered intO ma mind..

garlfeildmu was Once mine..i muz admite i mish hym thOugh..

even thOugh thrz bits Of hatred Over hym.

dun tink he'll even tink bck Of all thOse mOments we had..

sO y shld i ritex? i reali tOOk a deep breath Of deleting all da msges

Of Our jOurney in ma inbOx..frm da date we strted tOki & texting..

i simply kept evth..whr nw it was reali2 hard 4 mi 2 juz delete it Of ma lyf..

while reading bck i was juz simply finding fault w ma Ownself..ma heart..

i cdlnt accept it..but it brOught bck memOries.

i juz smiled 2 maself thOugh..while takeing a deep breath 2 delete all thOse.

well it certainly dOes takez tym 4 things 2 fall in place.

sum 1 tOld mi,

@ tyms eu juz gOtta act as if nth has happen & juz gO w da wind..

gO in da directiOn Of da blOw,bud nt 2 OppOse it..

whr @ sum part eu shld nOe went 2 & nOt 2..

grab each & evari Opp tt falls @ ya feet..

tish pOst gOez Out 2 tish dude

i reali hOpe ya gf wld read tish as well.

im sOwiex..

im reali sOwiex tt i kept hurting eu repeatedly withOut mi even realising it.

da dae wen eu teared 4 mi..i simply was stunned..i knew wads up in ya mind..ttz wen eu kept asking mi all kind Of qns Out Of nO whr..haf eu tOt Of hw id feel? things 4 mi hsnt been smOOth lately..while im here Overcuming barries in ma lyf..+ma relatiOnship..whr ive nt really recOverd frm ma tOrned heart ache.i din ask 4 tish 2 happen..i tOOk eu as a fwen..a fwen whc i cld trust..bud nt 2 push his gf 4 mi.tt'll make mi nO diff frm ma x.i respect ppl's relatiOnship..i dun tear dam apart.by nw eu shld nOe mi well.im hapi tt im sum 1 special 2 eu.bud thrz a limit.b4 it cums 2 tt pOint..ive made maself clear.im still in a shakey feelings.hOpe yOu'll understand.

2 ya GF

gO ahead & hate mi all eu want.

ive did nth 2 ya bf neither did i intend Or break ya'll apart.

he has his Own reasOns..

i haf ma Own prObs 2 handle as well.

juz stp bOtheri mi bt hym.

i reali dunnO wadz he up 2.

i reali hOpe eu bth wld settle things.

2009-08-02T07:09:00.000-07:00

IM LEFT W MEMORIES.

whr & hw shld i strt bt it?

since evari 1 has been gOi On & On bt ma relatiOnship..

whr im left w Oni memOries..

a sweet begining w a bitter ending..

i knew it was cOmeing..

bud din nOe it'll be 2 sOOn..

w tish kindda reasOns..

fOrced eu 2 kOl mi..

im nO strOng 2 gO On any further 2 qns eu..

as 2 nOe tt 1 wOrd eu said 2 mi..

4 dat vari 1st tym ive heard a diff farhan..

eu were nt eu whum i use 2 nOe..

frm tt vari mOment..i knew thr was nO pOint..

bud yet i tried pursueing eu lyk hw eu did 2 mi b4..

a drama whc i wanted 2 c hw cruel eu were..

4 tt mOment i knew sum 1 has stOlen eu frm mi..

lies were in tish ending part Of ma relationship as well..

eu juz left mi shOcked..

n dissapOintment..

ma heart juz tOred..

heari frm Others esp frm sum 1 whch i din wanna bOther abt..

its hurting nt On hw it has ended..bud On hw i gave eu ma lOve..

whr eu haf tOld Others bt mi..

eu made mi a fOOl..

eu made mi feel tt all da lOve i had 4 eu were sO cheap..

eu..eu..eu din even feel anth @ our last cOnvO..

eu sOunded sO chill...i juz wOnder hw cld eu..

wad did eu took mi 4..

im hurt.

deffi am!

bud eu made mi strg in the end.

NW ITZ ALL MA PAST.

lyf still haf 2 gO On..

2009-07-27T10:55:00.000-07:00

A name whch has been stucked in ma heart..

yet beating fast & fast each dae...

till it weakens dwn...

Soon 2 juz stp...

da sound of it pouting out ya name..

shall neva be heard again...

whr it softens each dae..

mind wOnders whr & wad r eu dOi..

tinking Of eu each & evari sec..

dOzeing Off w eur face in ma mind..

wakeing up 2 check hp 4 msges or kOls frm eu..

evari ring Of ma hp makes mi 2 tink if its eu..

bud juz 2 leave mi w dissapOintment..

finding out & hearing things bt eu...

breaking dwn intO tears is all i cld dO..

eu haf makeing mi feel lyk a fOOl within ma Ownself..

eu entertain Others..

but nt mi...

eu bother bt others feelings & health...

but nt mine..

eu make dam feel their impt 2 eu..

but nt mi...

eu find solutions 2 do anth w dam

bt nt mi....

evth has chg..if i were 2 ask eu..Or say anth..

eu'll hit mi bck w qns..whr its hard 4 me 2 explain..

eu'll say anth 2 get Out Of it..bud i cnt, as eu dunnO wads running deep dwn in ma heart..

sum tyms i juz ask maself..

wadeva eu said ish deep dwn frm ya heart?

dO eu reali lOve mi?

dO u still feel da same wae as b4?

dO u even tink Of mi..

Or euve simply had enuf Of mi..

is tish wOrth da wait..

hw lOng is tish gOnna gO On..

in the end will i get things bck On track lyf b4?

I SERIOUSLY DUNNOOO..IM @ LOST!

i juz feel lyk a tOtal stranger 2 eu nw..

even thOugh deep dwn ma lOve hsnt chg a single bit 4 eu..

its even harder 4 mi 2 mOve On even if i want 2..

i cn nO lOnger gO On acting as if nth has happen..

thr 2 many slashes within mine..

bud eu?

i shall letchu gO,if i reali haf 2........

wen cycleing w gf & bf @ bedOk reserviOr..

our bikes

adjusting

ma happinese

PS;HEARTS BURING ON FIRE W WATERDROPLETS!

2009-07-21T10:01:00.000-07:00

Im juz a KID & my lyf is a NIGHTMARE

What if I lead the way?

What if I make mistakes?

(Will you be there?)

What if I change the world?

What if I take the blame?

(Will you be there?)

I remember going back

To a place we used to lay

But I keep loosing track

And now the days, they all turned black And our dreams start to fade

But there's no turning back

'Cuz the world keeps turning

(Why do you tell me you care if you're not gonna stay?)

And my heart's still burning

(Why do you tell me you care)

What if I change the world? What if I lead the way?

What if I be the one

That takes the blame? What if I can't go on without you?

What if I graduate? What if I don't? What if I don't?

I'm slowly giving up

As the world's keep loosing faith

And you still turn your back

And now the path I follow takes a toll on me, on you

But there's no turning back And my heart's still burning

What if I change the world?

What if I lead the way?

What if I be the one That takes the blame?

What if I can't go on without you?

What if I graduate?

What if I don't?

I'll be waiting here I'll be waiting here I'll be waiting here

For you to call me

What if I lead the way?

What if I graduate?

What if I change the world?

Would you still remember me?

What if I lead the way?

What if I graduate?

What if I change the world?

And I found the words to tell you what you mean to me I'll be waiting here I'll be waiting here I'll be waiting here For you to call me

wad if cnt TAKE it any LONGER???

tish ish icey blue!

whc i fOund her under ma blk..

damn freaki small seh!

i wanna keep her sO badly..

but fam din allOw as i readi haf ma hubby mr.dexter.

bOohOo..

i fall in lOve w her icy blue eyes lahz!

grrrr..!

din wanna juz leave her..

sO i fed her milk & tried kOli peeps whu styed near by..

all Of dam cldnt make it..

neither cld i keep her 4 even 1 dae..

haish..

had 2 let her gO..

few daez bck had ma hairs curled.

fwee demO..

tt curler damn gd!

i waana gt it..

bud freaki XXXX

sum 1 get it 4 ma bade yaw!

$300

hahakz.

i lyk!

PS;ITZ HEADING 2 NO WHR..

(interview tish thurs @ faceshOp)

2009-07-14T09:21:00.000-07:00

im sOo da happy tt i gOtta meet ya lyk finally!

secOndly sOdeh gak psl eu tk dpt ma msg..

ma wishes & wOrds frm deep dwn in ma heart were all thr..

includeing da tears tt i shed while texti!

hemph! bud yet eu din receive psl ya budget hp!

i rase masOk dlm sea pun ikan sumua mati.

BABY

i hOpe nw eu nOe wad im feeling deep dwn..ive tried 2 let it all Out..

bud i cldnt..Oni 2 tear..its hard,i keep saying the same thing Over & Over again as i dunnoO hw 2 let it 2 eu...wen all eu cld dO was say..

bud seriOusly..went i gt the grip OntO eu bOy..

it was a satisfactiOn + ........................................eu nOe i juz cldnt hide it..bud thr were certainly changes tt i felt & saw..OvercOmeing it bby.

bud yet still AFRAID!

if a gal says shes scared 2 her dude..

eu cnt blame her..

itz natural.

if she tear

appreciate it..

feel it..feel her feelings

instead Of being ashamed Of..

feel her pain bOi..

met bby @ ps awhile..had Our lunch...

n lpk awhile as he waited 4 his sis..& he has pract sO he had 2 rush..

a vari shOrt dae w hym aft sO lOng Of waiting.bud nvm..endure.kate syg mahz..meet jp pun jadi..i juz cldnt bare 2 leave hym 2 bOard ma bus..

ma grip OntO eu were sO tight...

i cldnt...

im scared...

i cnt...

i need eu...

im endureing..

cn eu c it??

bby ate ayam pangang
8pts

i ate nasi briyani

9pts

PS;scared!

2009-07-10T11:34:00.000-07:00

1stly i wanna apOlOgies if ma pOst has been all abt hym

4 da past few daez..

i cnt help it..things has juz been happening..bud HEY! finally im sOoo sOoo HAPPY!

MEETING LOVE LOVE TMW!

yey! he din prangai2 Otf juz nw..Our cOnvO wen smOOthly..

lyk finally he kOled..& we r lyk seeing eachOther aft hw many weeks i tink..i feel lyk itz been freaking lOng..he even plan da venue..lyk sO da amazeing! 4 Once he made mi =) & feel sO nicee..haha!

yearning 2 hear ya vOice..

aft hearing..

it seemed diff...

a vOice whc sOunded diff..

bud i felt tish feeli wen smOOthly deep dwn..

sOothes ma heart bby...

bud yet im yearning 4 ya huggies & smOOches..

its lyk wOw...thrs lOtsa plan tmw!

*suppOse 2 meet cuzzies @ wdlns

*gO church w sis

*hang Out w ma guy frens

*Out w gfs 2 ctch da haunting mOvEe..

all plans canceled! juz 2 meet ma MR HEART MELTER!

PS;CRAVEING 4 F A R H A N!

2009-07-09T10:23:00.000-07:00

temp post

BABY'S BCK..

WE HAD FEW CONVO IN MSN

THINGS WERE SAID

IM HURT

HE DOESNT WANNA HURT MI EITHER

HIS HAFING PROBS @ HM

HE CNT EVEN KOL MI LYK DUNNO TILL WEN

I CNT BARE IT

BUD IT WAS SWEET OF HYM 2 KOL MI FRM $$ FONE

WHEN I WAS REALI DWN

I CNT TAKE IT..

I CANT TAKE DA DISTANCE

I CANT TAKE TISH FEELINGS

I NEEDA B CLOSER 2 EU

I WANT THOSE TYMS BCK

IVE HAD ENUF OF SHEDDING

Y MUZ PPL SEPERATE US

IM NO LONGER STRONG + IF I WERE

2....

time check:2am

cnt slp bud 2 tink & tink Of tt sum 1

this few daez ive been reali dwn..

i cnt take it..

im still lOveing hym as much as i nOe..

im sOo dying 2 wanna c hym...

grrrrr!

WHEN SEHXX!

*cries*

you say i dun listen 2 eu?

juz cOz 4 Oni tt 1 dae?

selame nie i ade ke uat2 pape..?

ade ke?

eu kept qnsi mi bt eu?

eu defend yaself..

bud wen say all thOse things..

ade eu phkr psl ma feelings?

ADE?

selame nie haf eu eva sat dwn & tink?

tink bt hw ive felt?

i nOe eu wldnt wanna this 2 turn out tish wae..

@ 1 point of tym eu even tOt Of it..

(i dOwanna mention)

haish..

i cnt..

i reali cnt..

all u ask 4 is ma understanding

bud all i ask 4 is juggle stuff.

nt leaveing mi behind.

im sOwiex.

2009-07-04T22:37:00.000-07:00

IM MISSING EU SOOOOO MUCH!

IM ADDING ON MA LOVE 4 U AS MUCH!

I MISH EU

I MISH EU BEING BY MA SIDE

I MISH YA TOUCH

I MISH YA BREATH

I MISH YA LIPS

I MISH YA HUGS

I MISH YA SCENT

I MISH YA VOICE

I MISH YA SMILE

I MISH YA EYES

I MISH YA EYEBROW

I MISH YA MISHEVIOUSNESS

I MISH YA LOVE!

I MISH EVTH BT EU BBY..

I MISH DA PERSON HYMSELF..

I MISH THOSE TYMS...

things haf certainly chg btwn us bth..bud da lOve is still deep dwn thr sum whr..eu claim eu lOve mi...bud ive seem 2 lOOse it @ 1 pOint Of tym..bud being left all alOne..aft evari quarell...aft all ma selfishness...

ive realise...i still dO lOve eu as much...even thOugh ive rebelled Out Of Our lOve..as im lack Of ya lOve as well..i cnt seem 2 run Out of it..even thOugh i keep claiming 2 ppl things are shakey btwn us..nw ive regret..i sincerely wanna make tish werk & put faith in it...bud im yet 2 still haf tish negative tOtz within mi..

well juz let it be left mi myself n i den.mOveing On had appeared in ma tOts..itz hard..itz reali hard 2 leave eu bby..

ILOVEEU TRUCKLOADS!

bby has gOne jb..he said he'll b bck 2dae

sO here iam waiting im patientlt 4 his kOl..im sO freaking wOrried..

i nOe its Oni jb..bud he left ystd alOne & b4 he left we had a tiff,haish

i feel sO bad sia..im sO ungrateful..ive been reali2 rude 2 hym..

i dunnO..itz hard...since da dae whr things happened..i seem 2 juz blOw up..esp wen tOking 2 hym..we hardly tOk nw daez & yet weneva he kols..it owaez ends up in a bad cOnversation..sO yea..wen he left ystd..i felt pretty bad.i pity hym..did i bully hym lots?haha..

seriously..i juz cnt wait 4 his kOl lahz..im wOrried sick here!

im waitnggggggggg..

wen 2 ikea few daez bck..

n i saw tish design Of da rOOm..

niceeee...ma taste!

bud i cnt seem 2 make ma new rOOm da exact wae..

cOz itz tOtally diff..

hakz..

bud nice lahz kn.

fav red & blck!

im in love w da heart shape mirror

PS;IFARKINGMISHEU F A R H A N!

2009-06-29T09:36:00.000-07:00

I FARKING MISH SKOOL!

lately ive been rOtting @ hOmee till sat i

went bck 2 werk @ ma attachment palce.

da dae strted Off Ok..mished it actuali..

hahakz..bud it was freaking tireing it all seems bck 2 square 1 2 mi..

cOz itz been quite sum tym ive ended attachment & da tOuch wsnt thr..

sO kindaa gt clumsy..hakz.ma painting tOtally sucked.

bud Overall it was aitex..

mngr said wen she needs mi she;ll ring mi up..

hakz..sO im lyf da part time stand by satff.

right nw i realli need a full tym jOb.

im intrested in thOse make up bOtique..

well hOpeing 2 gt mac Or bOdyshOp kindda staff..

gOnna get gf's 2 tag alOng 4 jOb haunts sOOn.

cn sit @ hOmee any lOnger liOa! grrrr..

i needa tOp up ma bank acc bby..

lOlx..

L O V E

i dunnO wads happening..

dae by dae it a tOtal diff thing..

itz lyk a feeling lyk im nt even att..

Or ma bf dOesnt even exist..

im rebelling..

i give up..

i give up putting high hOpes On relatiOnship..

i dO haf Other stuff 2 wOrry abt 2..

adding On 2 tish..

it juz seems all ''qns marks????''

evari 1 says werk things out...

hw am i 2 werk things out wen the Other party will neva understand?

2 mi his reactions are all hard 2 read n explain.

it owaez turns Out 2 b lyk Ok wad..nths happeing in Our relatiOnship..

grrrr...

sum 1..plz hit mi on ma head..

if cn juz take Out ma heart n slash it..

im still sticking 2 hym..

hOpeing things wld get bck On track..

da Other part..

im nt sure...shld i end it?

bud dh syg..nk uat pe kn..

his giveing mi da hOpe tt he lOves mi as much as i dO..

im waiting 4 da dae 2 chg 360.

im lack Of lOve here..

yey! gOtta meet minty!

minty bOoked Out frm camp & gave mi a ring..

sO i met up w hym near ma area while i was abt 2 meet irah

@ mac..Omgd! i was sO freaking happy 2 c hym...

kate rindu2 banget sama dia kn2!

tOld minty i wanna hug hym i c hy, sehxx..

i fucking mish eu sia!

hym:ala ku bau ler

lain kali..

haha..wen i saw hym i almOst teared..

yea..he was reali very da bacen..

lolx..

dh gelap sehxx nO mOre matt indOn liOa..

badan ahem nmpk..

gaaahh wait2..

wait 4 mi.

mish mish hym sia..

sO we sat n chatted awhile..

thr were sO many things 2 share..

2 many surprises 2 hear abt..

2 many sad stOries share 2 eachOther..

thr were lOts...

seriOusly as ma daez were dwn..

wen i gOtta meet hym..

i was reali cheered up by hym..

minty..

ingat kO sOrg sia skrg.

hahakz..

niwaez..

b strOng in camp..

gd luck..

kate nk hawt2 mahz..

irah was sadly blOgging..

sad?y?

i pity her as well..

she gt all dissapointed wen she fOund Out stuff On her Own

irah

all i cld dO was 2b a listening ear 4 eu..

cOz thrz reali nth i cn do..

since eu yaself fOund Out..

i believe eur strOng..

hOpe eu'll nOe tt da tear eu teared 4 hym is a tOtal waste.

lOok 4ward..

im sure thrs sum 1 Out thr whu appreciates eu n tt tear 1 dae..

hahakz..

i was sO carveing 4 it..

ta da pa pa pap IM LOVEING IT..

2009-06-23T07:55:00.000-07:00

A day whc suppOse 2 be a dae by da pOOl!

whch Oni turned Out 2 be a dae by da lake..

hakz..

galfee kOled mi up in da mOrn 2 cOllect bck her bag.

while i was aslp..retuned 2 her kOl wen i wakee..

had a few mins chat till she said she was heading dwn 2 jrng 4 a swim w

zul & asked wad was i dOi..as i had planned 2 meet farhan 4 a jOb lOOk Out..wen i maself feel lyk gOi Out in search 4 it..tOld galfee nt sure wad was our plan..gf asked mi n farhan 2 jOin her & zul.rang mr bf up & had a lOng argument juz 4 hym 2 tag along 2 pOOl was sucha hussel..

i juz cldnt understand his prOb was...im lyk gOi adw frm here 2 near his palce 4 a swim yet itz sO hard 4 hym 2 wanna cum..grrr..

in the end he agreed.

met gf & went 2 meet zul..

Off we went 2 haig rOad 2 gt gf's & mr zul's baju 4 raya dOne..

tt tOok lyk dunnO hw many hrz..

while bf gt me all worked up Otp!

reached chinese garden arnd 4+..

waited 4 bf..& headed of 2 jrng swimming cOmplex..

hakz!

Otw thr bf & i were in arguments bt evth.

he tOtally spOlied ma mOOd..

whr else bth cnt seem 2 argue withOut ending w a smile.

grr i juz hate tt part..

he Owaez makes mi laugh nO matter hw much anger im in..

bud deep dwn he doesnt nOe hw much heat i haf in mi..

it sO freaking hard 2 make hym understand..(bck 2 swimming)

wen we reach thr..

kia:TUTOP???!!!(lukz @ mi)

bf:arhkar ler..tutOp..

mi: bia btl?

kia:dorg cuci2..

mi:luk @ bf

bf:seriOus i lupe.aru ingat

kia:tkkn kO tk taw..

bf:serious lupe..

kecOh perz!

kite sumua mangOk sia pt situ..

tym check was arnd 5.45

till we crack our head 4 nearest swimming cOmplex..

since we r readi here any near by pOOl.

figured Out mOndaes pOOls r clOse 4 da west side i guess.

sO decided nO chOice in the end ended up in lakeside 2 chill2 till sunset.

Otw hOmee fOught w bf again..

Over & Over again..

never ending..

haha..

me kia were lyk so sad sehxx..

bOohOo..in the end nO swimming..

hahahahakz! kecOhz keperz!

gf w bf

hym w his head pain

ma muke bacen withOut make up!

=( nO swimming

angry face

Our fake smile haha

Im a gal whc sO much within herself.

@ tyms i juz wOnder Y ON EARTH DID I BORN!

things haf been happening sO much in ma lyf lately..

itz been reali2 hard 4 mi..

tinking bt evth reali hurtz mi so badly..

y..y muz i even cum intO tish wOrld..

wen gOd has readi nOe things wld turn Out tish wae..

y muz he even create tish path Of lyf 4 mi..

ive gOne thrOugh lOts..

been strOng since i was yOung..

whatever has happened & wadeva ive lOst in lyf..

nO 1 will nOe..

as ive been reali strOng On the Outside..

ani 1 whu nOes mi..

mite think their lyfs are da 1 in sucha mess..

lOtsa headache..

all i cld dO was 2 b a lisenting ear 4 dam..

bud wen they dun even nOe wads happening within ma Own wOrld..

breaking dwn in the middle Of the nytz..middle Of da dae..

wen i wakee has been a usual rOutine 4 mi..as i cn hardly bare evth...

as i nOe dat vari dae is cuming right 4 mi..i'll end up...................

i nOe..i reali nOe whr i stand nw...id rather end up dead sOOner den 2 be liveing wen i nOe it'll be the end 4 mi..

tinking n tinking makes ma head heavier each dae..

nt nOeing hw am i 2 lead ma Own lyf....

wen i dun even haf a guardian 2 lead..

all i need is a career nw..

& next step will haf 2 b sum 1 w a strong appeal..

a guy whc cn reali take care Of mi

i dunnO if dat guy in ma lyf nw wld..

whc is reali impOssible..

i nOe whr things will end up..

let juz things turn Out itself..

faith i'll say..

trust nO 1 dey say..

includeing ya Own blOOd..

ive learnt frm da hardest..

IMSUFFERING...

IM NT STRONG ANIMORE..

ITZ GETTING WEAKER..

im aiming 4 da fnsh path in my lyf..

I WANNA BE UNBORN!

PS;gOi bck 2 werk tish sat..

2009-06-17T08:37:00.000-07:00

sOwiex 4 da late updates..

hakz...

chalet was ok..

nt reali dat fun thOugh..

bud Overall it was gr8!

nt much turned up..

all i did was cycle w sum Of ma gf..

& gt ma haired curl by zirah!

omgd! itz freaking nice sehxx!

regret nOe!! i sO wanted 2 curl bud ma hair is shOrt nw!

bud shOrt2 Oso nice lehz..haha..

bck 2 bbq..

den started da fire..

i kept bbqi..bud din eat much!

seriously..i was freaking hungry..

bud cnt seem 2 eat..i was juz thirsty!!!

drank lOts!

evth was bOring....

till sunset!

wEeeeee........

wasnt sure if ma dae wld be a tOtal waste!

bud guess wad...

S U N S E T STARTED IT WAS TYM 4 FUN..

waited 4 all Our dudes 2 arrive.while evari 1 arrived lyk shOrtly rite aftereachOther..& sO we headed Of 2 dO da tix bOoking 4 midnight shOw..drag mi 2 hell!..Overall it was aitex bud pretty grOss thOugh!

haha..wtching mOvee w gfs n eachOthers bf was fun..Y? haha..cOz fiza's bf kuai2 was sO freaking kecOh lahz sehxx..fiza all was lyk readi giveing da red light tt sape2 dOk seblah kuai nasib ar..haha in the end shidah's bf sat beside hym haha kecian..seriOusly 2 theatre kuai keje kn sehxx..i cldnt stp laughing all cOz Of hym..eu shld c hw fiza struggled..haha sblm yg scary part klua dh member ter kejOt kn Org..! hahaah FUNFUNFUN.

aft mOvie evari 1 was sO dead beat tired & return 2 chalet 2 find Out all were drunk.lol..while i gt bck @ chalet wana & izzul was gOne..cpt sehxx dia chOw..nvm i guess she had werk in the mOrning.nicO was aslp while da rest wOke up cOz Of us..haha in the end sumua tuka shift..it was Our turn 2 slp while da rest gt chased On to da floor..haha..nolahz..it juz happened..wOked up in the wEe hrz 2 search 4 fOod w kuai2 n bby..as we Oni fOund 1 packet Of crabstick in the friged.aft tt all headed bck 2 slp & it strted raining..wOooo ape lagi...ZZzzzzzZZZZZZz...................wen i wOke up shidah ''nana kite dah denga kO snOre''OMGD! i tOt it was bby whu snOre sO i said nt mi wak lahz yg snOre...''tklahz bkn wak..ko lahz nana'' sO we tOOk turn 2 take Our shOwer while da dudes were still aslp..wakeee2 dam up...

checked Out Of chalet & gt Our ass hOmeee..

ma curls

bby & kuai slping..

On Our wae hOmeee

@ the end Of the dae..

bby was sucha sweetheart!

seriOusly he surprised mi by getting alOng well w da rest Of dudes..

& din spOil ma dae..he tagged alOng w mi adw w a happy cheery face..

bby..tankee 4 being thr w mi & takeing Of mi da whOle nyt!

lOve eu!

IM SOOOOO GONNNA MISSSHHH ALLL MAAA GGGFFFSSSSS!!!!!!!!

2009-06-14T05:58:00.000-07:00

i cnt seem 2 c y friends give up their Own friends juz 4 da sake Of relationship.i tOt being in a relationship is smth tt eur gf/bf is suppOse tO haf a trust n respect their Other parties fwens.

i nOe itz reali hard sum tyms eu really haf 2 sacrifice ya gal-frens juz galfee...

& ya bOi-frens juz 4 ur bOifee..@ sum part yea..

itz tOtally acceptable.

bud wad if uve kwn sum 1 since skOOl daez?

lyk 7-9 yrz?

well yea actuali isnt tt big deal yet..

hakz..

bud evth was smOOth.

till Out Of a SUDDEN!

tt guy fren Of urz tells eu Out Of nO whr..

''if i were 2 cntc eu,she'll ask mi 4 a break up''

sO i we shall juz end da kakak thingee.kite act je k?

aitex tish part wen we were in skool daez it sum hw ended up tt

tish paticular dude became lyk a brother 2 mi.

each n evari 1 of us were all very clOse.till thr were sum issues btwn eachOther

as in da rest den evari 1 juz split!

his a reali nice guy.

bud...

@ tish pOint Of tym..

i dunnOoo..

im all sO wOrked up abt wad eu msged mi juz nw!

seriOusly..

i nOe she means alOt 2 eu..

ive readi said earlier..

we shld juz loose cntc.

bud it was oky cOz we hardly cntcted eachOther Or met besidez festives Or bdae parties.

bud nw eu c?

i cnt say anth.....

cOz she's ya gf..& im juz a fren Of urz.

ive siad it all.

but

ku tk phm ar..

ape yg kO mrpk tadi psl if i din ans ya kol she;ll make ya lyf miserable by gOi 2 pOlice.

& y On earth ish she standing On 1 leg 4 eu 2 end it w mi?

HELLO!

i hardly cntc eu..

neither dO i kol eu!

hOpe eu'll tink back abt all the things had happened btwn us..

im nt trying 2 tOk big here...

bile kO ssh sape yg tlg kO?

i nOe tt msg was juz 2 fake it.

bud since kO dh blh ckp gitu

den wadz da pOint kn?

lyk i said kO tkcr je.

nice nOeing eu!

TOMORROW!!!!

FINALLY DA CHALET HAS ARRIVED!

weeee...

lyk seriously i cnt wait 4 tmw!

bud im dead bit tierd here!

wOke up early am juz nw...rushed dwn

2 geylang market juz 2 get da stingrays n stuffs 4 bbq

as ms tan reali wanted ikan pagang whc i did @ da previOus chalet.

wEee...da teachers lOved it & sO did i..haha..

din nOe i cld make nice fOOd..lolx!

gOtta wakee tmw lyk arnd 7 2 prepare da fish.

& gOtta b @ dwn @ 10am as we'll b receiveing an award..

tish award thingee has given us abit lecehy..cOz we gOtta b in fOrmal n presentable attire..

yet we've Our big bags

lucky ms tan is Ordering fOod accept

4 mi! bOohOoo...

haahaha...nvm esp 4 ma lOvessss gf!

lolx..

HOPEING MA DAE WNT BE RUIN TMW

whch it has readi been ruin 2dae

friendship+relationship wadz next 4 mi?

i juz cnt c y cnt eu juz tag alOng..

y cnt eu 4 Once give in..

im nt even asking eu 2 cum Out a cent..

all i want is eu 2 b present w mi..

i nOe eu wanna spent tym w mi alOne..

bud itz a big dae 4 mi & gfs & ween their bf's are tagging alOng..

y cnt eu juz b lyk their bf..

y muz we Owaez be dOi da same thing Over n Over again..

haf eu eva tOt bt ma feelings...

thrz sO many things i wanna say 2 eu...

itz sOoooo hard 4 eu 2 juz shut up keep still n listen...

i reali hOpe tmw i'll get a chance tmw 2 haf a gd chat w eu.

i wanna settle things.

O F F 2 C H A L E T.....